I don't even know why I'm so stressed. Maybe because it's Jane he has just met. What does she see in someone like him? He's only using her because he's bored, then he will find some other bird, and then never speak to Jane again... like he doesn't know her. Why am I stressing about it though? Does she even properly know who I am? Yeah, she knows my name but that's about it.
I have a weird nauseous feeling in my stomach. I hate it. I bet Jane's thinking about what a good time she's had; little does she know that os other girls have been on the same date.
I want to ask Stradlater about that night, and get all the details, but I keep going on about it. He doesn't really answer- it's like talking to a dog- nothing comes out, and when it does it's not useful. I can't show him I care, well he wouldn't care anyway. A guy like Stradlater only gives a damn about himself. Should I ask him one more time, or leave it? He's so annoying to talk to. I don't know whether to strike a conversation or not. Perhaps I should leave it. I really don't want to talk to him right now. I don't feel like it.
I need to get a plan ready for when I leave this goddam place. I'm glad I'm out of here, but where do I go next? I don't see why I keep getting kicked out... There's so many more guys worse than me here. I don't know how to tell mother. I feel bad, and I've let her down. I might never see Jane again- I think I should go and speak to her.
I really need to stop worrying. I think I worry too much. Way too much. I don't know why I'm always worrying. I need to stop. Nothing worth worrying over. I've just got myself into a panic. I might start to read my book. That might take my mind off things. No, my goddam worrying won't let me read. I won't be able to stay doing it for long. I really need to find out what I'm worrying about.
Maybe I should go down and speak to Jane now. She might take my mind off things I don't think there's any point... I'll be leaving soon. I'm gunna try sit down and read my book. That's if my goddam mind lets me. I wonder if Jane remembers the summer we spent together. Playing chess with her kings in the back row made summer good. Why do I always have to think so much.
By Shauna Walding
I have a weird nauseous feeling in my stomach. I hate it. I bet Jane's thinking about what a good time she's had; little does she know that os other girls have been on the same date.
I want to ask Stradlater about that night, and get all the details, but I keep going on about it. He doesn't really answer- it's like talking to a dog- nothing comes out, and when it does it's not useful. I can't show him I care, well he wouldn't care anyway. A guy like Stradlater only gives a damn about himself. Should I ask him one more time, or leave it? He's so annoying to talk to. I don't know whether to strike a conversation or not. Perhaps I should leave it. I really don't want to talk to him right now. I don't feel like it.
I need to get a plan ready for when I leave this goddam place. I'm glad I'm out of here, but where do I go next? I don't see why I keep getting kicked out... There's so many more guys worse than me here. I don't know how to tell mother. I feel bad, and I've let her down. I might never see Jane again- I think I should go and speak to her.
I really need to stop worrying. I think I worry too much. Way too much. I don't know why I'm always worrying. I need to stop. Nothing worth worrying over. I've just got myself into a panic. I might start to read my book. That might take my mind off things. No, my goddam worrying won't let me read. I won't be able to stay doing it for long. I really need to find out what I'm worrying about.
Maybe I should go down and speak to Jane now. She might take my mind off things I don't think there's any point... I'll be leaving soon. I'm gunna try sit down and read my book. That's if my goddam mind lets me. I wonder if Jane remembers the summer we spent together. Playing chess with her kings in the back row made summer good. Why do I always have to think so much.
By Shauna Walding
Psychiatrists Report
To who'm it may concern. Thank you for referring this young male to my practice. He has shown very clear signs of OCD, as well as the fact that he is very anxious. He is clearly showing a sense of entitlement and some what authority. His parents are very wealthy, and his sister very smart. He holds a social status of upper-middle-class.
MY diagnostics are : OCD, Severe anxiety, high levels of stress
This young white male also has a very disjointed thought pattern, which can lead to stressful conversations, and or arguments.
By Cornell Van Staden
To who'm it may concern. Thank you for referring this young male to my practice. He has shown very clear signs of OCD, as well as the fact that he is very anxious. He is clearly showing a sense of entitlement and some what authority. His parents are very wealthy, and his sister very smart. He holds a social status of upper-middle-class.
MY diagnostics are : OCD, Severe anxiety, high levels of stress
This young white male also has a very disjointed thought pattern, which can lead to stressful conversations, and or arguments.
By Cornell Van Staden